You’re Gonna Miss This


You’re gonna miss this
You’re gonna want this back
You’re gonna wish these days
Hadn’t gone by so fast

These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you’re gonna miss this

-Trace Atkins “You’re Gonna Miss This”

This blog has been about three quarters meditations on motherhood and one quarter crazy thoughts on everything else. But, I hope, if anything, it’s been a great journal of all my parenting peaks and valleys.

Since I seem to observe more valleys than peaks, I’d like to share the true wonder of today and all of its peak-ness. :)

Today, I rushed to Parker’s preschool to see him “graduate” from the three year old room. He heads to the four year old room in the Fall. In the grand scheme of life, this is no big deal, but as I watched him file out, adorned in a homemade graduation cap with his name on it, I realized why I rushed there in the first place. Because, someday- in the not too distant future, there won’t be a party or a ceremony or a school event to run to. And I’m going to miss days like today. And even just walking away from his bedroom door after putting him to bed, I already do.

There are few days as a parent when you feel like you really nailed it (or at least your kid did). But today was one of those days for me.

1. Parker’s excitement when he saw me in the crowd. “HI MOM!”

2. Blowing kisses to me during the performance. In the special way I do before I put him to bed.

3. “Jesus Loves Me This I Know” song at graduation and all afternoon in the car. He even repeated the performance for our mechanic’s wife when we dropped off our car at their house.

4. The framed diploma he came home with. I have resisted taking a picture of it and posting it to every social media account I have.

5. Giving him his favorite dinner in celebration: pancakes and syrup.

6. The smell of his toddler breath as I hugged him tight in bed and told him I was proud.

7. The book he memorized and “read” to me at bedtime. And the sparkle in my husbsnd’s eyes when he told me, “Do you know he knows that whole book?”

8. The plastic penguin he insisted on talking to bed with him. There’s always some animal trinket he insists on taking as his companion.

9. Superman pajamas.

10. The way he says the word world like “wuh-llll-ed.”

And, as the sappy country song states, I’m going to miss this. All of it. Trying desperately just to hold onto it now.

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